I've been home for nearly a week and I haven't checked my blog, email, or facebook in during that whole time. I think it's because I feel like I've closed a chapter in my life and I'm ready to move on. I haven't closed the overall story of my cancer, mind you. I still have a long way to go. I will be seeing the doctor and getting scans about every 2 to 3 months. And my body will need some time to recouperate. (Right now, I experience muscle fatigue and shortness of breath just walking up one flight of stairs.) I may need a transfusion or two and my hickman catheter still needs to come out. But I have definitely closed this chapter of daily doctor's visits and/or hospitalizations and daily struggles to just to survive the cancer and chemotherapy.
Honestly, I feel a little lost as I close this chapter of my life. My schedule of classes at CBC doesn't start for another couple of weeks and I'm not quite sure what to do with myself. I've invested so much energy into my treatment the past 6 months. Despite my efforts (and blog posts like this one), I let my cancer define too much of who I was and now I'm having to redefine myself a bit.
I will be taking a break from blogging for a while - at least until February I think. When I return to blogging, I'm not sure how much will be related to my cancer/treatment/recovery - probably very little. But in this one last post, I must say thank you to all who have read and left encouraging comments. Plenty of others read my blog to stay updated, some of whom I know and others I don't. Many of you prayed for me. A simple thank you on a blog seems woefully inadequate. Please know that I appreciate all of you - much more than I know how to communicate here. At this point, my prognosis looks good. But should I have the unfortunate experience of my cancer returning, I'll need all of you even more.
I remain convinced more than ever that God is good. May you all experience His goodness and have a wonderful 2009!
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Enjoy life and getting back to the normal routine whatever that may be. The prayers will continue to come your way as you have tests and recover. I'll miss the insightful blogs but it is great that you can put "cancer" on the back burner
By all means, redefine yourself! Post-cancer, Praise the Lord!! I completely understand your need to take a break from blogging. In all probability you will be in a completely different place in your life emotionally, spiritually, physically, and how you relate to the world at large will be 'new' when you start blogging again. I will KEEP praying for you and your wife and children-enjoy the couple of weeks off to revel in your family. Love always-Juli & Greg
So Glad you are home and doing well. Not reading new posts will be a hard habit to break though and I will miss reading your updates. Will keep you in my prayers.
K.
It has become a habit to check your blog every couple of days to get the update. However, I wish the best for you and your family and I know that now that this chapter is closing another one is opening...and it's going to be a great one! Prayers will continue for you and yours!
can't wait to have you back at work! :) God IS good, isn't he?
Praying for God's very best for you and your family in 2009! To God be the Glory Great Things He has done and will do in your lives!
Will look forward to your blog posts next month.
Hey, I just found your blog. I've only read this first post, but am anxious to "catch up." Best of luck these next few months during your continued recovery. You guys have been in our prayers. So glad things are going so well.
Hey it has been over a month! Do you have any news for us?
Have been praying for you and hope you are doing well.
Have missed your blog posts.
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